Umer Toor Blog: Wish-list

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What do i envy?

I envy:

people who know nature of things
people in love with Allah and his Prophet
people who are bay-niyaz, i.e., to whom nothing matters except will of God
non-mercenary, really patriotic and morally aware FIGHTER PILOTS! [My only janoon/extreme passion-obsession-love: a realm beyond that of love/ishq and anything else you know; pure passion: in which one personifies his target job/field/role and behaves like one everyday; only such janoonis as per psychiatrists outperform the rest and do miracles no one else can dare imagine doing]
productive people, especially academically
people with expertise
people with encyclopedic knowledge of fields that really matter, like philosophy, medicine, fiqh, history, mathematics, physics, metaphysics, etc., not fluff being taught in universities - the outliers in non-outliers
people with indomitable courage
with vision, wisdom, perseverance, people knowledge
bloggers who get lot of comments
people who can theorize and explain through essays and even books with lot of evidence (either factual or mental/logical/metaphysical/philosophical)
people on the right track! fixated please...
people with cute children [can i adopt one being single?] and devout wives (hoors later)

Academic Wish-List: Path i want to tread

i've wasted a lot of time in relation to my quest. wasted 4 years as such in a degree that is hardly of any worldly utility and nor for my stammering, scholarly ambitions. having failed to fulfill the janoon to become a fighter pilot, i'm lost!!! thoughtlessly going into a job field seems a cowardly act. i've one more chance to re-boot and pursue a dedicated, no matter how inter-disciplinary field that fits my grand non-monetary, unworldly, intellectual quests.

My quest is ultimately search for Absolute at personal and academic level. For that i've to master many disciplines including logic, grammar, philosophy, metaphysics, irfan, methods of analysis & description, mathematical thinking at deep levels, jurisprudence, legal theories, and above all knowledge and understanding of the Revelation. These are the fields our Muslim forefathers would have mastered at 17 or 18 as in case of many. I know none!

To do list of a lost wanderer

Inspired by this: http://spotlesssoul.wordpress.com/2010/12/31/to-do-list/

to know myself
to learn how to argue and think razor sharp
to learn to read
to learn ahadith
to learn Qur'an
to master urdu, english, german, persian, arabic, french
to become a multi-disciplinary social scientist
to achieve highest stages of spiritual path (am i sure?)
to become a historiographer
to become an expert on modernism and post-colonialsim and post-modernity
to become a mureed of Rumi (ra)
to take care of my health
to jog and excercise regularly
to learn to focus by spiritual and psycho-therapatic practices
to learn to write books (not not just another book)
to not to be a mere book-worm
to wage jihad against forces of disruption, injustice and oppressors with heart, mind and life
to reflect constantly
to fulfill my obligations to attain my shariah granted rights
to be faithful to my country and ummah
to not to back bite
to take care of presentation of my physical being
to be near to nature all the time
to make a home in a mountaineous regions and work there
to be an academic in the service of deen and humanity
to love and be loved
to take care of my parents and family
to marry a devout woman
and on and on and on